For the past six years motherhood has presented the perfect excuse not to have a creative practice. I’m too busy, too tired, too needed-elsewhere. Yes, I have sewed, baked, collaged and more during this time; but all too often these endeavors have been stashed away until some elusive point when I get more free time. I have allowed motherhood to be my excuse not to grow creatively. So here I am now with three kids and no less desire to create, just less “free” time and I don’t think that will change any time soon.
I am sick of giving in to the voice in my head that says things like:
- You should be doing something important right now (like cleaning.)
- Art for no reason isn’t worthwhile.
- You don’t deserve time to play.
- If the dishes aren’t done you shouldn’t be making things.
- When the house is organized or kids are older or ~life is perfect~ THEN you’ll have time to play in your studio.
Bullshit! If I wait until the timing and circumstances are perfect it will not happen. I will never get to a point where the universe taps me on the shoulder and says “Ok, all the other work is done, now you can pursue your creative life.”
Creative life cannot be separated from “regular” life. As mothers we must change the tone of everyday life towards creativity. We can make little tweaks and changes to our days so they begin to be filled with more art and light and inspiration, and less excuses. If we are to have vibrant, exciting lives, our creativity must be interwoven into washing dishes and making snacks. If we are to raise creative children who will build a beautiful world, we must show them that creativity is a priority- not last on the list!
So I begin with my new creative practice of sketching every day. Making it an every day commitment helps me work through the excuses. Choosing something realistic for this time in my life makes it possible. Each day that I do my sketching it is a little victory over the creativity-killing voice that tries to persuade me a more perfect time will come later. The victory make me feel creative, sparkly, and more awake.
And the dishes are patient, they don’t mind waiting until I do my sketch.