Take a what? I know- asking you to take a self portrait might be odd enough, but one while you’re breastfeeding? Why? And how would you even do that? Bear with me.
If you are a breastfeeding mom, you know well the vast amount of time you spend just sitting and nursing. If you’re like many of us, this is a time when you are often online, either via a smart phone or a computer- oht*, nak*, right? Hey, I probably wouldn’t even have this blog if it weren’t for breastfeeding- I have loved having the ability to be connected with the world instead of just sitting there.
But maybe, just sometimes at least, there’s some real value in NOT being connected with the outside world and in being connected with that little nursling instead.
When you are sitting there nursing for the quardrabillionth time, it can feel like this time will last forever, and you will have plenty of other times when you’re nursing to lean down and kiss that soft baby hair. You’ve done this so often that you’ll always remember the feeling of that little warm body snuggled against you…right?
Ok, — you know, YOU KNOW, this breastfeeding relationship won’t last. Truly you know that this is just a nanosecond in your parenting life, and perhaps you feel a little sadness thinking about the time when you won’t have this intense connection with your child, even if you also feel a bit like a human pacifier.
My daughter is 20 months, and while I plan to nurse at least until she’s two, part of me is SO ready to be done. Nursing a toddler can be exhausting. I am over touched and often overwhelmed. However, it’s a nuanced and sweet relationship as well. As much as I think I will feel ready to move on to the next stage, I know that in order to feel ready to move on, I need to really revel in the parts of nursing that I just love. It occurred to me the other day that I have very few photos of us nursing. Not only that, when someone else take s picture of you nursing, it just feels different- posed and slightly fake.
So I decided to take some breastfeeding self portraits.
These are nothing elaborate, just me grabbing my camera and taking some snap shots.
You know, it doesn’t have to be breastfeeding- try taking a self portrait doing something you love with your child. I chose to take some breastfeeding photos, because it’s something special to me that takes on a quality that’s very personal to me and my child, and that quality changes when someone else enters the picture. Taking self portraits does an amazing thing. It tunes you in to that moment, it helps you notice and honor that joy that you have with your child.
I wish you a very Happy Mothers Day my friends. May you have many moments of noticing the simple joys that you share with your children.
Your *one hand typing and *nursing at keyboard, blogging friend,